As I was reading Sunday’s devotional, I thought of the experiences my husband and I have had over the past year and a half. Through the journey of losing our daughter, we have learned a lot about faith.
For our daughter, Carys Rainn, faith didn’t mean “if we believe enough, God will make her whole so she can live.” It meant we trusted that God was able to do so if He chose to, but we believed He had other plans. We also believed that even though the outcome wasn’t what we wanted, God was, is, and always will be who He says He is – Love. Because of that, we could trust that He was not toying with us, He had a loving plan, and Carys was lovingly and intentionally formed just the way she was.
I was amazed throughout the pregnancy how many people told us that they were praying for a miracle for Carys. I quickly came to realize that Carys was a miracle for us. God is continuing to work through her brief life.
It seems that we often misunderstand when scripture tells us faith can move mountains.
(Matthew 17:20 He said to them, “Because of your little faith. For truly, I say to you, if you have faith like a grain of mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’and it will move, and nothing will be impossible for you.”)
While it is absolutely true that faith can move mountains, we often miss the fact that many times, faith means being willing to let the mountain be. It often means knowing that we have a Heavenly Father who has a plan for us in the journey. Yes, climbing a mountain may be hard, exhausting work, but the experience is invaluable.
Throughout our pregnancy, I often thought of Christ’s prayer in the garden.
“And going a little farther he fell on his face and prayed, saying, “My Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me; nevertheless, not as I will, but as you will.”
We know that Christ was not lacking in Faith. He asked for His mountain to be moved, “if possible.” So, I begged for Carys to be whole, if possible. God was working on me through my baby girl. I knew He was capable of THAT miracle that everyone else seemed to be praying for, but He gave us a bigger miracle than we could have expected. He gave us a glimpse of Heaven.
God is completely capable of moving our mountains and calming our storms, but as our Heavenly Father, it is also His job to challenge us to grow and mature. Regardless of what mountain you’re facing or what storm is headed your way, we have a Heavenly Father that is bigger, more powerful, and who loves us. There comes a time when we have to accept the obstacles and trust the Master to help us overcome them. I may be beaten up by the storm, but I wouldn’t trade the experience for anything in this world. Heaven is more real to me now than ever.
Keri Kitchen is a devoted wife and mother, blogger, and licensed mental health counselor. To read more about what God is doing in her life, visit her blog at www.aftertherainn.com